Reason

 So.. I was invited. To go to see them in the previous place I worked to. On a Friday, during my working hours. 

I felt wrong especially I still have a lot of pending work to do and I am afraid that I would mess up. My mind occupied with so many thoughts. Not to mention I am still waiting for the exam result.  Thinking that I would be penalized.

I decided not to go, because I don’t feel it’s right. 

I guess it’s me. I’m sorry.

I hope I have chance to be forgiven. I should have just stay silent. 

Even if I went , I wouldn’t get what I want.

I just wanted to spend some time with a person, if I were to go there it would be spending time in a groupz talking about the same things. Gossiping about the same thing.


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